So, I was thinking about it. And I’ve realized, I really do push people (guys) away. If a guy starts talking to me, I’ll start to look out for flaws. I start to point out (to myself) what’s wrong with him and why I shouldn’t talk to him. And I guess it’s just because I’m afraid of getting hurt.
In the beginning of the year, I actually get excited for school. Even though I was dreading today, I kinda wanna get the rest of the year going. I have the motivation to keep everything organized and actually learn. :O But then of course as the months go on I start getting lazier and lazier and I start to hate school. I’m tryyyyyying to not let that happen this year, even though it’s junior year and I have so much going on. Imma try to not procrastinate. :’) Overall, I gotta make changes and stick to them. Hopefully I will !
Usually I’m at least excited for the first day. But I’m not. I’m just not looking forward to getting into all the homework, studying, papers, stress. Especially because it’s junior year and I’m taking an AP class, honors classes, and SATs. Blaaah -___-